Sch starts tml... HAIX!

well, i went to town yesterday with darlin, and we went to catch the Scary Movie 4 at plaza sing. haha..it's so " scary" !!! lolx, i'm so sked till i laugh my head off at the scenes. hmm, u shldn't miss it, and i guarantee u that it will be the "scariest" movie of the year.

anyway, aft tat, we went pastamania to have lunch. the food was nice and filling. fat again. haha, aft which, we walked ard, and went taka. actually, town's a bit sian rite? but then, who cares? haha, though it's s'pore sales now, but we din get anything. hee, we are thrifty teens (:

hmm, javier looks very good in his long sleeve shirt yesterday! haa, that was e 1st time i saw him in long sleeve ever since we are together. haha.. but overall, he looks great. hee, no wonder girls are lookin, but can't blame him actually. if i was like any other girl, i will cast him a few glances too...

haa, we came back to boon lay, and went to his hse, cox we havin dinner with his parents. ate quite alot, and fat again. darn. i simple cant resist the temptation of the food!!!

well, i reached home around 10.30, and i was quite tired. hee, that explains why i woke up at 12 today... lazy pig!

Javier (:


JILU AND RILU!


i'll neVer goNna leaVe youR sidE, i'm hEre stiLL holDin lonGer, neVer goNna leT yoU go...

i haven't been bloggin lately, cox i guess i have nth to blog abt. lolx. well,perhaps, rite now, i am really bloggin jus for e sake of bloggin.

anyway, i went sch yesterday for econs lecture. gosh, 4 hrs of lecture were really turmoiling, i wondered how i manage to stay awake throughout the lessons. seriously, i didn't think i manage to comprehend what the lecturer was talkin about. tough subject indeed..

as for today,i've been slackin and sleeping. i wasn't in the mood to revise or study. this is goin to be bad, cox i have econs test next week. haha.. gotta do something abt that tml. in e evening, i went out with darl to have dinner. it was filling and sumptous. haha.. goin to grow fat again.

anyway, i came to realise that the feeling of knowing ur partner's past with other girls was quite apprenhensive and not nice at all. have you ever wonder that it has been someone else with him/her, sharing the sweet moments and doin exactly the same thing with your partner before you came along? yeaps, i have thought about it before, but that never really bother me much.

hmm.. i wonder what's gotten over me. lolx, but anyway, it's all in the past. we are doing great together, and it's been really a blessing to have him with me. i appreciate what i have now, and no matter what happened in the past, it was over.


yesTerday's oVer, cHeriSh whaT yoU haVe aT the pResent, foR tomoRrow wiLL be a gIft.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE!

haha, it's my sis birthday today! hmm, well, she had a bbq party at east coast, but i couldn't go. felt quite bad about it. i really hope that she will enjoy herself and have fun with her friends and relatives. anyway, happy birthday once again = )

had been rotting at home for the past few days. i haven't been doing anything constructive actually, and i am gonna regret i think. one more week before sch starts again. haix. well, it will be a busy term, with the exams coming up. i better buck up, and do some useful stuff in the remainin time.

well, i went shoppin with my mummy today, yeaps, i bought some stuff. HOWEVER, my stupid shoe gave up on me when i was walkin halfway. darn. but luckily, i wasn't too far away from my home. haha. so embarassin!

oh ya, i wanna recommend the book " Tuesday with Morrie" . an old man, a yoing man, life's greatest lessons, you can't missed it. i gained alot about life insights in this novel, from love, family to aging and death. well, i see that life isn't about fame, wealth or status; there's more to it. we tend to remind ourselves not to take things for granted, but we does not practise that; you want to do something, but you are bound to do something else.

well, this is a tension of opposites, and we humans live somewhere in the middle. we tend to try accomplishing everything, but in the end, we end up with nothing. besides, we are too engrossed in our daily activities that we have developed the illusion that " that's how we should lead our life". we fail to see that life doesn't only revolves around work and study, the people around us aren't there for nothing. perhaps i deduce something from this statement. humans brought that upon themselves, they are selfish and self-centred, and they neglected the people around them, in the end, they will blame the others why he/she isn't being given enough attention and love. in e first place, they have never gave love to someone before, so how do you expect people to love them in return?

therefore, i agree with one of the sayins in the book , " love each other or perish". Love is the only rationale act. it's never too late to tell someone how much u love them, cox u nvr know how much it meant to someone. haha, tat's why i wanna tell everyone here, " i LOve yOu! thanKS for bringIN so mucH joy to my life! " haha...

hmm, y do i sound like a old woman telling ah ma story? wahaha.. enuf on my " old tales", gotta watch tv... hee


" eaCh niGht when i Go to sleEp, i dIE. anD the nExt mornIn, wheN i waKE up, i Am reBOrn..."

darn. it's like eleven at nite, and yet i am still so full even though i ate at around 2 in the afternoon. y? cox i had buffet at seoul garden. and it cost a bomb. actually, i kinda regretted cox it pained my heart to see that note biddin farewell to his wallet. but anyway, the food had really caused me to think tat i am FATTER!

we went town today, and we were lookin for food desperately to fill up our growlin stomachs. initially, we wanted to have ramen at PLaza SIng, but we yearned for buffet aT saKae, thus we went to heReen, then we found out that weekend doesn't have buffet at all. darn again. at tat moment, we were really so hungry tat we decided to have buffet for lunch, and so we headed for e Seoul garden @ TAka. and a moment of folly that was. a meal for two which cost nearly fifty bucks, how "cheaP" it was. well, we decided to eat our guts out so that our money paid will be worthwhile. so we gobbled up e food. in the end, we ended up with a NICE AND FILLING STOMACHS WHICH BULGED OUT, at least for mine. SO UGLY!

well, i think that particular meal will be able to last till tml's dinner. i'm serious. well, back to topic, afterwhich, we walked around orchaRd, commentin on the meal. haha, it's quite funny indeed, with me comfortin him abt the "lost" note. at least we tried to be optimistic :)

arghhh... i'm gonna go joggin tml if i manage to wake up. i really have to get rid of those disgustin fats. rouisanna, YOU ARE SO FAT! gonna use this to spike myself to do somethin abt that.

waitin for my phone to be charged before goin to slp. yawnsss...

evEn though the meal was a bit tormenting, but i had enjoyed myself today. gonna appreciate what i have now.


wHy doEs thE timE alwAys sEem to fLY wheN i Am wiTh you? if onLy thE tiMe couLD sToP ...

Gp tests completed! hooray..haha. well, hopefully i can pass. i dun wanna FAIL! clean record till now. haha...

hmm... went back to nan hua today to collect my stuff. well, the school doesn't change much, but the feelin is no longer there. the only remembrance of the place is my classmates and friends. anyway, when i was walkin out from the sch gate, i saw my present clsmate who is livin at NUS high. he's leavin for indonesia. i was quite surprised to see him cox i thot he had already left e country.

aft tat, i went clementi central and i had a sudden urge to do somethin to my hair. well, i hope tat u ppl will think it's nice. lolx. typical lady.

came back home and did nth. well, actually i did some hw, but not much. haha. plan to have KFC for dinner today, but dad said sun then go bird park and makan. haha.. ya noe y? cox it's DADDY"S birthday today!

haha.. it's sat tml. hmm, wonder where m i goin tml? no idea.haha. LAME.

diao...* a-bish* WORLD CUP STARTS TONITE! but does it concern me? lolx. blah blah blah.


he's mY druG anD i'm adDicted...

hmm.. two weeks gonna be over. so fast. i haven really enjoyed my holidays. haix.

well, Gp common test is tml, yet i haven prepared for it. actually, there's nth much to study, cox it's compre and compo. disgusted at the thought of that.

wonder wat i have been doin for these two weeks. yeaps, i did my hw, did my PW, but nvr do revision!! arghh.. well, gonna complete my hw ( GP research paper ) asap, and starts on my revision.hmm.. i wish for a few days to chill out, will my wish be granted?

haha..yeaps, sat is gonna be here! every sat is always the happiest day for me, but soon, i think every day will be the same le ba. dunno y, but jus have tis feeling..weird.

anyway, have been wakin up rather later recently , ard 9 plus. hmm, wonder how i m goin to wake up tml? 8 have to reach sch. sickening.i wan my ZZZzzzzzz...

hee.. jav, hope ya like e drawin i did for ya. i hope that it will constantly remind ya of some stuff. haha..n dun worry, i will not go for matchmakin de. whahaa.. one javier is more than enuf. i dun nid anyone else. period.


I onLy thINk oF yOU whEn I"m BreaThin...

wat can i do to help him? i have no idea...

i dunno if i have done the right thing last night, shouting and pulling him back to his mum. i knew i have the responsibility of bringing him back to his mum, but yet at the same time, i wished that we can just disappear from this world.

i was afraid that he will do foolish stuff. he was too obstinate, or should i say, perhaps there was really no one who understand him. the feeling was terrible, and being back into a family whereby he found no warmth and love make thing worse. he was so sad..people might always think that he was wrong, the one whom caused the unnecessary dispute, but have anyone really understood wat he was going through?

work was already taxing enough for him. he just wished that he will have some time for himself after work. but somehow, he wasn't spared. some ppl yearn for parent's love, but some people are suffocating due to too much attention from parents. he should know that he is his mum's everything; his mum was worried that he will meet with any mishap. that explained her anxiousness and calls. in every mum's eyes, even if their sons/daughters are adults, they are still being treated as children. i hoped that he understand that...

on the other hand, it wasn't totally his fault. yes, he is an adult, he has to answer for his own doings. however, too much attention might do harm and not good. it will cause him to rebel, and fight for his freedom. he hoped that his family will communicate with him more often, understand him. nevertheless, boy u must be strong. no matter how bad things appear to be, you are still part of the family. they might not show it or show it the wrong way, but i'm sure that they still love you so.

i think my impression has been tarnished and i will be blamed for his actions. i dunno y, but i jus had this fear. this isn't within my control, if they really think that i have caused him to behave this way, i have no choice too.

i knew that he said words out of anger. i did not blame him. if such words could cause us to break, then our love was just so superficial. yes, i did break my promise of taking the plane with him, but i will not break the promise of sticking with him in times of sorrow or happiness... even if he chased me away.




bestow him with strength to lead life strong. give him love to revive his heartbeat. embrace his life with colours. all i ask for is very simple. a smile from his bottom of his heart, not once but everytime.

javier, choco boy, ba yee.. can u hear my heart calling out for you. show me your true colours and lead me to the coldest part of ur heart, so that i can breathe into it and make u warm...


~true colours~
you with the sad eyes
dont be discouraged
oh i realise it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

but i see your true colours
shining through
i see you true colours
that's y i love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colours
true colours are beautiful,
like a rainbow

show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when i last saw u laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know i will be there

haha..chalet was over in a blink of an eye.. we had enjoyed ourselves during the stay. haa.. we managed to finish watching the 3 series of Lord of The Ring. the show was nice and spectacular, especially in The Return of the King, the war sights were awesome! hee...

well.. we had the most romantic and unordinary dinner to celebrate our anniversary.. after checking out yesterday, we went wild wild wet to have fun. there were not many people there, so it was still alright (: hmm.. then went KFC to have our lunch, and we headed back home. i was so exhausted that i slept immediately when i reached home. haha.. darling so pro, dun nid sleep, still can chiong game. lolx.

anyway, after so many hours of sleep last night, here i am, so fully awake in the morning. haha..
hmm today will be going town to get someone's present. haha.. it's been quite logn since i went town i think. haha... well, it's ok since i dun relly like town. haha.. weird me (:


i'll foLLow yoU wheRevEr you gO...be iT heaVen...