i nearly losT my wallet today, what a close shave! well.. i was really careless not to notice my wallet wasn't with me until i was goin to take e mrt. hmm, i went to queensway shoppin centre with my boy to get our shirts, and on e way back, i left my pouch beside me, and i forgot to take it when i alighted from e bus. how blurred i was, but luckily he was with me, or else i would have no idea wat to do and find back my wallet. long story.. but in short, i lost it and found it back with everything intact (:

hee, our second couple tee shirts are finally out!! woohoo..they're very nice, white and orange with words JILU and RILu behind e shirts for me n him respectively. it's very chio!

i will be goin ah ma hse to stay tml. it's been so long since i went, cox the coming monday i have some family matter to settle. well...after that will be free le! yeaps (: but the next few days will be taxing for i have 5 tests to sit for.. lolx. haix... jc's life is just so demandin...

hmm.. a short entry today. goin to sleep soon. tired. haha...good nite !


i wanT to bE thE girL whO makEs yoUr Bad daY beTTeR and thE onE thaT maKEs yoU saY ," my liFe haS changEd sinCe i mEt you" ....

just completed my Gp portfolio task.. haha.. at least one thing off my load.

eyes closin soon, but still here, waitin for his call to arrive soon..i dunno if i can tahan tat long, but try my best. haha..it's a long weekend this week, but doesn't mean i can enjoy la. haha.. i have already planned wat i goin to do durin these 3 days, so tat i can have fun and have time to study for tests.

yawn! hmm, something happened yesterday, but i didn't wan to talk abt it anymore. wat's past had already passed, just hope that it will not happen again, cox i felt really devastated aft e incident.

anyway, can't wait to get our anni tee shirts.. hee..JILU and RILU!! 2 more days to 5th anni (: so happy...

k ba..i gtg liao... hee... tml quickly come!

wHEn u FInaLLy finD somEoNe to whO u WAn tO spenD thE resT of ur liFE wIth, u waN thE reSt of uR liFE to sTaRt rigHt aWay...

shit.. shit..shit...i havin a terrible headache now.. head goin to burst soon. i cannot take it anymore, suddenly everything comes crashin on me. wahhh..save me!!! okie..rouisanna, come on, u not goin to die so easily.

ahhh... ahhh...ahhh...! i really dont feel like goin for the tv programme, cox that day's my impt day. but it's a good exposure for me. i don't think anyone will have such chance la..tat'y my mum encouragin me to go. i dunno wat i really wan, i just wan him to be happy. tat's the problem with me, i wan everythin to be perfect. but, i know it's impossible to do so..

sometimes, all i need is a little encouragement. tests are comin out, and i have to manage my studies and spend adequate time with him. i dont want him to feel tat he's bein abandoned, my poor him. how i wish i can split into 2 person..lolx. crazy me. haha...

haha...at least i still can laugh, not too bad. haix..body not feelin well recently, plus not enuf slp, plus all those nonsense, haha..soon i become an old granny with lots of white hair. hee...he's goin to suffer sia.. bein tagged along by granny..lolx. k not funny. doink*

rouisanna, ain't u wonderful? still can laugh n smile at this point of time. haha.. wat to do, or else everyday pull a long face, and sound depressed meh?? can't be rite, life still need to go on, good results might be impt, but a happy life is more crucial. i'm not goin to ill treat myself, so long i put in my best, i will be contented... haha...easy talk, hopefully action oso easy ((: haha...anyone interested in goin skatin pls tell me.. (:

BMTC...girls lookin forward to tat, i dreadin tat. as long i dun get sea dizziness, then no problem . haha.. well, hope it'll be fun, only lookin forward to take a look at e food there ONLY, or else he goin to think alot again. lolx.

k, i goin to slack le. today restin day for me. hee..

WhEn i TeLL you i loVe you,i don'T sAy iT oUt of haBit
or to sTaRt a conVersAtion.
i saY it to remiNd you thAt you'R thE besT thiNg taT haS evEr hApPEnEd tO me...

haha... i think i better stop being so rou ma..i seriously start to feel that it's quite rou ma oso.. haha..sorry to all those who read my blog for givin u goosebump * u know who you all are*...anyway, i will try my best to reduce all those mushy stuff...

well, finally i can get to go home early aft weeks of goin gome at 5 to 6. haha..e best thing is that javier drove me home!!!! first time he drove me ever since he gotten his license in feb. haha..hmm..the feeling was great! dun worry ba yee (:

well... thurs shld have no sch cox there's nomination day...haha..luckily, cox i have two tests on tat day la. hmm.. i think there's cls outing tat day..still deciding if i shld go. cox got 3 tests next week. plan to study chi... haha.. am i a nerd?

well.. actually i dun think so, cox i will be out durin e long weekend since mon's Labour Day. well, 1st of may.... impt day for me..haha. 5 mth old le...so sweet...

onCe upOn a tiME, soMEthing haPpeneD to mE.
iT wAs the SweEtesT thinG that couLd evEr be,
a fantaSy, a dReAm comE truE,
it wAs thE daY thaT i meT yoU...

well... cool picture, with a cool guy wearin a cool sunglass.. and taken by a cOOL mE! haha...

went queensway yesterdae to print our shirts.. our 5th anniversary gift for each other (: hmm.. he had designed e shirts and i'm sure they'll turn out to be nice !

haha.. isn't e guy above gorgeous?

I wrOTe youR naME in tHe sAND, buT thE wavE wasHed iT away. i WroTe uR nAMe in mY heaRt anD forEvER it wiLl staY...

it's been so long since i last posted my entry! haha.. i have been quite busy recently, and preoccupied with studies and activities. well..tests are comin up soon as well, hopefully i will have time to rest and study and PLAY!!! wahaha... i'm still a YOUNG girl afterall... hee.. * no pukin*!

i manage to learn how to skate le!! yippie, i', so glad tat i took up inline skatin as IDP la.. or else i dun think i will ever have e courage to roll on those blades.. hee...i think i nid more frequent practise, or else i'm afraid i will forget how to skate. lolx. i wanna go east coast some day..

next happy thing is tat i am doin volunteer service every week, from red cross home ( RCH) to MINDS, and hopefully i will pay a visit to the children's centre one day. it's been really enriching and the people there r really nice even though they can't talk properly for MINDS, and impossible to talk at all for RCH. they are the most simple-minded people and harvest no evil thoughts. it's not an easy job ; u need to overcome ur shock and fear as the people are really different from normal people. many of my friends gave up halfway.. u really need determination.

haha..actually my life isn't as bad as wat i used to think. it might seem to be stressful and busy, but it isn't sad. well...so i shldn't be like so depressed. haha.. especially when i have my loved ones and darlin with me.. there's nth more i can demand... haha.. so smile! cheese...hee


iF it'S wroNG to loVE you, thEn mY heaRt juSt wuN leT mE be righT

yeah!!! i finally bought a bag, and it's quite nice, puma's one. haha..my ideal kind of bag, big, cool and reasonable price, hee. rouisanna's so happy.

well, yesterday's public holiday, and i went out with darl darl e whole day. we went to k box at jurong east, and it was very crowded. ppl were already queuing up when we reached there, haha. early birds huh? hmm, anyway, i saw many of my friends there, juniors and etc, hee, and my cute darl darl so funny. he had tat expression on his face which revealed his jealousy. haha... my darl darl's so cute when he's actin like a baby...haha. javier u cute cute u look like woo!

after that, we went bugis to get my bag and my friend's birthday present. hmm, i got my friend's birthday present finally after e shop girl tried to flirt with my darl darl!!! wth!!!! i'm so jealous la... " y not u buy for me?", " if i were e boss, i will give u e bag for free", she told him tat!!! arghhh...

we proceeded to get my bag, walked around here n there in bugis village, and eventually caught sight of my ideal bag.hee...there's a roxy one, but not very nice cox the handle was long. so we got the puma one! then darl darl wanted to get a three quarter pants, so we walked around again. and we stopped at a shop where he bought his cool pants. haha...it's quite in trend now, and i do admit his fashion sense is "thumbs-up". hee...

our stomachs were growling by e time we finished shopping. haha, for the first time since we have been together, we bought so many things. haha, he was carrying so many plastic bags. haha, n he said something sweet. dun tell u all. haha. well, i tried some food which i have nvr tasted before, and they were simply delicious! thanks darl (:

haha... darl doin his guard duty at the moment, ganbate darling! hee, u got ur guard 3 duty, so not too bad (: muacks... SA RANG HYE YO !

sOmeonE puT theiR namE in A cirCLe noT a HEaRt, A heaRt cAn bReak buT a CircLE goEs oN forEvER.

the sight of those elderly and bed-ridden patients made my heart ache...

i visited the red cross home for the disabled today ( interact club's activity) at hillview, and the building looked very torn-down and dilapidated. i knew that the people i am going to visit was not normal; they were ill and bed-ridden. indeed, they needed a lot of care and warmth from us, and true as it was, some of the patients were smiling even though they had difficulty speaking, when i held their hands and talked to them. their smiles made me feel that what i was doing were all worthwhile.

even though the majority of the patients were adults, there were a few children living there too. a malay boy, ages about 6, suffers from skin infection, and it was making him uncomfortable. he was crying so pitifully. a boy who is just only 6, going through such torment, makes me feel really upset. i tried to soothe him, but to no avail. he kept crying, and i could do nothing to help him, not even the nurses. i felt so helpless at that time. at that instant, i caught sight of a neoprint on his bag. a picture of him with his family. my tears fell. " daddy and mummy love you", i told him tat. i am so devastated, imagine yourself as the boy, how u wish ur parents will be there by ur side, but they aren't...

i love kids, i wan kids to be happy and free of suffering. however, i witnessed an unfortunate young boy who cries daily due to uneasiness caused by his infection. he can be like a normal kid, attending school, running around, but he is so fragile, so weak. it pains me alot, hearing him cry but can't do anythin to relieve his sufferin. even though i dunno him, but i treat him as my little brother. every kid is considered a sibling to me, i wan to love them n give them warmth... but this time, i failed....

iF i neVEr stOP loVin yoU, Will yoU neVEr stoP wanTing me tOO...

wooohooo... i felt a sense of achievement finally. haha, i managed to finish my PI for project work, and my essay for general paper . hee, i have cleared the toughest homework among all, and the feelin's so good. haha, PI is due tml and Gp is due on thurs. so i dun haf to worry abt not bein able to finish them on time (:

hmm, i still have my chinese test which is on thurs. hmm, going to be quite tough cox it's chi literature, haix. hopefully i can pass , cox i noe that subject isn't easy to score and pass. well, rouisanna ganbate!

well, at least my mood has improved. thanks to everyone who is concerned over me, esp my vier vier. he's been very understanding and he tries his best to cheer me up. he is the only one whom can detect something's wrong with me even though i tried to hide it. bu kui shi wo de darling!

wahaha. next week will be a tiring week for me cox from mon to thurs, i have to stay back in sch till abt 5 to 6, except tues. phew, at least got one day i can go home early. nvm, nothing can defeat me, i'm going to be strong. friday holiday so not too bad (:

mEeting yoU was Fate, beComing youR frienD waS choiCE, buT fallInG in LoVe witH you wAS comPletelY ouT of my Control.

it's the third week ever since sch has started for the second term, and i'm still tryin to adapt to the suffocating timetable. well, i guessed i'm really used to the timetable in secondary sch, whereby i can be dismissed by 2.30 everyday. however,it's not the case now. everyday, i can get to go home earliest, by 3 pm. jc life is really a challenge indeed.

anyway, i attended my first yoga lesson today, which is compulsory for every jc one student. it is part of our pupil development programme. since not everyone was dressed appropriately for the lessons, we just did some basic and simple exercises. haha, my stomach was gr0wling throughout the whole day, cox i was so hungry. hmm, i wasn't surprised, lolx.

i wan to apologize to someone badly, cox i noe my tight schedule has resulted in less meet-ups. i wan to let him noe tat i miss him badly too, and i will do my best to keep him company whenever i can. please don't worry that i will forget u, or love u less, cox it will never happen. even though i can't see you everyday, but my heart is with u every moment. this i promise....

loVE is being toGether,
loVe is beinG true.
loVe is huGs and kiSses,
loVe is mE and you!

thaNk yoU foR bein TheRe wiTh me duriN thiS perIOd of timE.

iF iT haD not beEn u, i'Ll stiLL haVe beeN an immature Girl who iS gulLible anD naivE.

uR enTranCe inTO my liFe haVe noT onlY brougHT joY anD haPPinESs, & at the saME timE, u haVE becomE my firST loVE.

u haVe reaLly bEen an undERstaNdin, proTEctiVE anD loVin boyfrieNd whO alwAys manAge to foRgive mE, nO maTTer hoW much i haVE hurT you.

i nOe i haVE noT bEen a gOod paRTnEr aS i haVe noT bEen giVin u reAssuranCe and my acTions someTimES giVe u thE wronG imprEssIon, buT i wan u tO noE taT i'M willin to chanGE fOR you.

uR comPanioN iS greatLy eSSentIAl to waLK me thrOugH thE patH of liFE.noThiN beaTs moRe thaN sEein u haPPy anD haVin yoU by my siDe.

i'M soRry tAt yoU haVE criED foR me, anD foR maKin yoU feEl terRible.

u r tHe onE i'lL yeaRn to be witH, the onE i'll waN to wAlk dowN the AisLe with in a feW yeaRs' timE.

lAst But noT leaST,

haPpY 4tH monTh anNIversARy jaVIEr !

juSt becAuSe someonE doEsn't loVe you
i N the waY u wan thEm to,
doesn"T meaN theY dun loVE you,
witH all thEy haVe got.