haix..i had been runnin to the toilet umpteen times today, cox i had a terrible stomachache since mornin. it's so unbearable and uncomfortable, and initially, i felt like goin home, but i decided not to cause i didn't wan to miss any lessons. in the end, i managed to bear with the pain, and luckily it did get better after tat.

well, i had my first cca day with interact club, and i know that i will not regret joining this cca as it caters to my needs in helping others who requires aid from us. hmm, we had "orientation" today, and from next week onwards, it will be home visits to MICE ( for the intellectual-disabled), ayer raja children's centre, as well as home for the disabled ( physically and mentally).

i know tat many of them will be choosin to go for the children's centre, since it's easier to get along with these kids, and they are normal ppl. this mentality is present in most of us, i supposed. well, i decided to go for the intellectual-disabled one as i wan to expose myself to a diffferent grp of ppl and it broadens my sights. i know that getting along with them will be a great challenge , and i think tat having gone through challenges will enrich us greatly.

haha, i look forward to the home visits next week (:

jaVier, beiNg dEeply lovEd by yoU givE mE couraGe, while beIn deEply loVed by mE giVes you streNgtH.

yoU're eVeryThin i neVer knEw i alwayS wantEd...

i had a really good time yesterday! woohoo, all thanks to my darlin, wan ling and his sis, haha. we went wild wild wet and had a splendid moment relaxin and relievin our stress. haha, i tried the ulah-la, and waterworks for the first time, and they were really shiok! heee, the shiok river was great too, since i had a "human float" who carried me and waded one whole round, and tat's none other than my sweetheart javier! muacks, love the feelin alot (:

i think we should organise such stuff more often in the future,whereby we get together and have fun. it really helps in makin me, and hopefully the rest, to forget abt the taxing work load we have earlier on, and soaks ourselves in immense pleasure. well, life doesn't only revolves around work, sometimes, have a little fun will make us excel better, dun u think so?

anywae, maybe tat's y i'm always lookin forward to saturday, cox it's a day when i can temporary " throw away" those sch stuff, and spend a wonderful day out with my darlin, and sometimes, his family as well. oh, i'm really one lucky girl who definitely noes how to enjoy life huh? haha...

oh ya, congrats to u adeline wong, if u r readin this ! yeaps, i'm glad that u have the courage to pursue the thing u wan, which is to be a christian, and u have achieved it i supposed. good luck and may u achieve great things and understand life principles aft u have converted to christianity!

life doesn't seem as bad as we used to think afterall... cox there's always someone or somethin to make it better.

in my life, i have already found my happiness ever since i found love, and tat the reason is cox of you, jAvieR!

i'm sweatin like hell now...haha, i nvr noe tat a few simple aerobic workout will make me sweat till as if i had ran 2.4km. cool,tat's good i think, make me lose all those unsightly fats! i shld visit the gym someday. hmm, it's been a tirin day for me, lessons ended ard 6. i have nvr had such long lessons, so it's been tough for me. well, i dunno how the rest who have such schedule managed to survive for four days in a week. haix, the timetable's just so sucky la... anywae, sat's comin soon...woohoo.. wild wild wet!!! haha, lookin forward to it (: sorry darlin for this mornin, dui bu qi, wo ai ni!

lots of interestin stuff to share today...

blood donation, should i go for it? jjc will be havin a blood donation drive next week and i feel like goin for it, cox i have been wantin to donate blood, BUT, i'm scared of the pain. i dunno if my legs will turn jelly when i see the needle, or worse, faint over there. lolx. rouisanna, stop scarin urself please! i'm really scared of the needle bein injected into my arm, gosh, but i hope to overcome my fear. i try to console myself that the pain is just temporary, my blood can be used to save ppl, hopefully, it will work! haha...

todae's cca open house, and well, i join interact club. no more lion dance for me, it's a bit sad, but i noe interact club will suit me more. it will be held every wed, and the activity includes visits to the homes, childcare centre and stuff. wat attract me most are the overseas cip programme, and the student exhange programme. i love doin voluntary work, so no regrets (:

well, i decide to sign up for the inline skatin, for the IDP ( interest-directed programme ). haa, i hope that i will manage to learn skatin thru the course. woohoo, i have been wantin to learn how to skate, and this is a dream come true for me! haha, but i gotta be fast, in case the response is too good and all the vacancies have been taken up.

oh ya, talentime! haha, honestly, i'm quite tempted to join tat, but solo is not my cup of tea. haa, my friend keep askin me to join and go there sing " shan hu hai", but one person how to sing? lolx, if it's in grp, i dun mind la. so i guess i will not join ba...i can sing for leisure, but not for competition (:

well, tml will be a long day for me, lessons till SIX!!! haix, i can be counted quite lucky, it's only one day in a week.i noe of others whu have such schedule for 4 days a week. tat's quite bad, isn't it? wonder how they are goin to manage their time?

dear, i miss u so muchhhh. i dun like you le...cox i love u too much.

ji pi gu,i dun wan u to tired urself, dun wan u to be too stressed out, and most importantly, dun wan u to forget me, and i noe u wun! hee...fishy!

thinkin of u always, from the bottom of my heart - to my dearest javier

well, i finally had my blogskin changed, with the help of my darl, hee, thanks javier!

hmm, yesterdae was the first day of school, and i wore my new sch uniform for the first time, haha. i looked alrite, i supposed,lolx. anywae, i saw my new classmates and i expected it : majority of them are of ethnic races. nvm, it's good to have a change in environment, but it's kinda quiet, which is quite unlike an arts class. perhaps it's because we didn't have the chance to get to know each other.

LUCKILY, i maanged to know all my classmates today, and it's better as compared to yesterday. haha. good job rouisanna (: oh well, i had my weight measured, and i lost 1kg !!! yippie. i gotta buck up and eat less, haha. but i will NOT skip meal, so dun worry darlin (:

anyway, i'm gonna sign up for the NYAA stuff, goin for the silver award. okie, i admit i wan to join is partly becox i wan my testimonial to look good, cox NYAA is recognised nationally. the other reason is cox i wan to make my jc life more interesting , and i dun wan it just to revolve around academics. i aim to be an all-rounded student!

i suddenly had this urge to make my JC life a better one, aft hearin the talk on recruitin councillors. actually, i was quite tempted to go for it, but aft thinkin, i decided to give up the idea, as i fear tat i'll not have time for my revision and darl. hence i decided to take up the NYAA , at least it's spread over the years, and i can afford to spend time on other stuff as well. yeaps, rouisanna, u r doin good ! lolx, lame.

recently, i came to realise that my sis has become a christian, and she is keepin her mouth tight regardin this matter. if i din saw her blog, i will never have known abt tat. anywae, i have no objection abt her becomin a christian, and i have no prejudice against any religion, but i'm always thinkin abt it: will believin in a religion helps in a person's development, or in any other way?

i have no idea even though i'm a Buddhist. i dun even noe y i become a Buddhist, maybe it's becox of my family, since everyone's a buddhist except my sis ( used to be free-thinker). haix... nvm, i think i'm goin to get sued if i continue any further. well, all i wan to say is tat i just believe in myself, it's my life, not spirits' or goddess', or god's.

everythin lies in ur hand - u decide your own destiny.

adino has grown up, but he's still as lovable as he was when he was just a baby... i went to my grandma's hse today, cox it's been quite long since i visited them, plus there's my adino over there. btw, adino is my three year old cousin, whom i dote alot since he's born. anywae, my first reaction when i saw him was to laugh. lolx, he has this funny hairstyle, cut by my grandfather. hee.. so funny. well, he saw that my hair was tied up, so he went to the kitchen n took two rubber bands. then he was like stuffin the rubber bands into my hands,and pointing to his head. and i knew what he meant. haha.. so i just anyhow tied two for him, and he looks really like a girl.. wahaa. and that reminded me of my darl havin his hair tied when he was young too. both of them are so cute la.. muacks to my beloved darlin! oh ya, i have been listenin to guang liang's new song : yue ding. it's quite nice, and i like it quite alot. try listenin to it if u can, hopefully u ppl will agree with me ba. i bought a converse shirt at westmall on the way home jus now, it's cheap la cox they havin sales. well, it's a white shirt with green stripes, quite nice la. and it's bloody worthwhile, cox it's original price was 30 bucks, but i got it at $14.90. haha... rouisanna's damn lucky! hmm, u guys shld go there n take a look if u all nth to do, cox there r really some nice n cheap stuff (: hee so happy now, can see darlin for the next two days. i'm flyin over the moon!!! hee... rouisanna's really one fortunate girl.. slp tite n rest well darlin, xin ku ni le. you r neither chicken pi gu or chicken breast meat, u r my special rou wan!

it's not a dream as it's too sweet to be one.even if it's one, u will still see me by ur side when u wake up.

congratulations darlin, you have passed your TP! haha, i'm so happy for u, woohoo... u dun have to worry abt havin to pay more for ur lessons le, nor havin to take a butcher knife n say " kon li xi"... wahaha (: oops... well, actually i wanna change the blogskin de.. but then i dunno how to do it lei. my sis isn't free nowadays, and i'm computer illiterate, so have to put off that idea for awhile first. i'm quite sick of this blogskin le, so i wan to change to somethin more simple and plain. haha, i prefer simplicity actually, cox simplicity makes me feel more relaxed. hee, yeah, i dislike complicated stuff, since i tend to have trouble tryin to sort out stuff. simply, LAZY! hee, i finally manage to find the video of the speech yesterdae, thx to the people on the keeptouch community portal. but it's a pity tat it can't be saved, but i think there's a way out now. so, at least i feel more at ease. haha, those whu noes me shld noe tat i dun like to do thing halfway, so if i wanna help, i will give my best shot till the goal is achieved. typical rouisanna's thinkin.. haha.. hmm, went sakae sushi with my sec sch friends yesterdae, whu includes tammie ( not tat NYP one, lolx) , woon peng, and zhao wei. it's been really long since i last ate with them, but kinda wasted that qiu yan wasn't able to turn up. anywae, it was really filling, n till now, for the whole day, i haven eaten anythin yet. lolx, phobia towards food. oh ya, they were really evil la, keep bringing up all those sia sway stuff which i had done in the past, and worse, spread to their friends whom we met halfway. haix, rouisanna rouisanna, y u keep embarassing urself in the past? haha, i'm not goin to reveal all those stuff which i had done, kinda stupid but they were really funny! wahaha... goin to slack le..seeya ppl (:

well, another day has passed. 5 more daes before sch reopens... hmm, i have been stayin at home these few days, lazy to go out, so choose to stay at home, at least there's my bed for me to lie on when i'm tired. i admit that i'm a pig la, so fine.. oink oink.. haha, the only places i frequent are jurong point n the library la. hee, no life? lolx, i oso dunno lei, but i dun care la,so long i like, who cares? so am i sayin tat i have no life? haha.. hopefully, the next few days will be better. haha, i have decided not to stay at home for the next few days le, i will die. haha..tml will be goin out, thurs haven really thought of it, but perhaps i will be goin to my ah ma hse. friday maybe goin to the east side ba, gonna take somethin from friend.then weekend dun nid say la, shld have activity ba? haha, saw something interestin on the news, dogs can detect if a person will have cancer by smellin. wow.. dogs have really proven to be very useful.. hee, if only i have a dog, it will accomapny me when i'm bored... well, i used to have a wish, i want a dog for my birthday, or maybe have a dog when i'm older. and best, a labrador. okie..fat hope rouisanna, HDB flats cant allow labrador to be kept.. haix. well, it's been hard on u javier, rest well worx! u gotta take good care of urself when i'm not there, no one to nag at u, haha. well, see you when u r free ba.. n jia you worx! to lesley-> u aren't fat! u aren't pessimistic, but u have a lack of self confidence and u tend to be bothered abt wat other ppl say, exactly like ur cousin jav. well, sometimes, it will really do you good if you choose not to care abt other ppl's comments, or rather take it to heart. life's beautiful, y let such useless and unpleasant criticisms affect u? it's your life, not others, hence u shldn't give them any chance to make ur life sucky. no one tells u wat to do, u decide on ur own if u wanna wake up and start a brand new day, or wake up broodin over yesterda's happenings. well, tell urself tat u aren't useless, i keep psycoein jav n once has a dispute over this stuff with him before when he has that kind of thinkin too. u gotta prove to urself tat u r capable of doin stuff which not everyone can achieve. for instance, u noe calligraphy which not everyone noes how to write. isn't this something wonderful? therefore, build up ur self esteem, and u will soon come to realise that u are actually able to carry urself well, and naturally, u will have self confidence. once u have tat, ppl will look up to u and treats u with dignity (: i really hope that day will come soon... ganbate!

Sunday, it should be a day for resting and enjoying, but todae, it wasn't an ordinary sunday for me. well, i woke up as early as 6 to attend a south west CDC event at jurong east, gotta do ushering duty over there. it was quite tiring actually, even though there's a break in between. and there went half my day... hee, i have been lookin forward to seein darlin, and yeaps, i met him aft my event. we didn't went far, just walked around in the nearby shopping centres. i was a bit tired and sleepy la, so i was glad that we just loitered around the west side. hmm, he had to go his ah ma hse, so it was just a brief meet-up. well, i didn't care, so long i could see him, i would be happy... even though i only saw him for a short while, that's enough, i didn't dare to yearn for much (: my one-week holiday will start tomorrow. i think i will start to revise my work, then perhaps go out with my friends whenever i feel like. haha, i have so many outings, but i dun feel like turnin up for all. hmm, the one which i confirm goin will be the sakae outing..yummy! hee, tempted by the food la.. well, cant blame, i'm a food hunter... hee..if i were to choose where i want to go during this holiday, it would be somewhere out in the sun, and soakin in the water. wild wild wet!!!! yeappie, i wan to sun-tan cum play with water...so i guess tat's the ideal place. however, i dun think i will have e chance la.. so forget abt it. lolx oh ya, this thursday will be an important day for my darlin, cox it's his TP. i pray hard that it will not be " puah boh" again. lolx. whoever the tester is, i hope that he will pass his test this time round, and i'm sure he will! jia you javier, i support u always (: hee...i got a new monitor AGAIN.. the previous one was damn sucky la, cant see even a single thing clearly. well, noe i got a damn clear LCD flat screen one...woohoo. next target will be to change my useless hp, haix, 27 msgs unread... pai seh to those whu sent me msgs, but too bad, i just cant reply cox i cant see a single thing. lolx.. new hp, here i come!

love u xin gan! hee..muackS (:

excited or boring? i dun even noe... well, next week's hoilday, but i dun feel anythin at all. somehow, i wished that there was school, at least i would have something to occupy myself with...

haha, there are so many cls outings, rangin from pri sch, to sec sch, and maybe even jc. wow... i dun even noe whether i wanna turn up anot la, feel so sian. well, pri sch will be goin sentosa on thurs, sec sch will be goin ecp on mon, wed to sakae ( my clique ppl), etc.. lazy to list la...

haha, maybe i will go for the sakae de ba..long time nvr see qy, wp, zw they all le, kinda miss them. hmm..pri sch de, maybe oso go ba, haha...but sentosa lei.. haha, quite far, me a bit lazy.

haix, think my sis is having loads of fun now ba.. she's sentosa la.. while i am here rotting. I"M SO BORED... went creative this mornin to habe her mp3 player get repaired, then aft that went to walk walk, but decided to go home cox got lots of weird stares from ppl, something which i hate. well, then came home n online, luckily got mr chua to crap with me, or else i will die. hee... after tat, accompanied mummy to giant to get some stuff, and came home. HERE i AM... now blogging.. haha..

hmm, tomorrow got some south west CDC event, gotta rise early, haix.. so sian la.. but then no choice, since i agreed, so i have to go. hope i will not have cramps la. these two days keep havin terrible cramps, not feeling really good la. PMS lor..haa, no la, lolx.

k la, i goin to rot again.. hee, tomorrow will turn into skeleton le. k lame... ROuisannA stop uR lamEness, everyonE's goin to suffER! hee, well, at least mr chua has already suffered from my laming... wahaha...

i just miss him..i really do. give me sometime and i think i will get used to not seeing him frequently.

i tries to remain optimistic, his efforts are being appreciated and his involvement in major project shows that he has earned his chief's respect and trust. i am happy for him, i really am..

maybe i am just tired and sick..

buT i am definitely not angry...

i miss u javier...TERRIBLY...

" sheng ri kuai le...wo zhi xiang dui ni shuo..." i'm crazy over this song nowadays... it's very nice and it just attracted me when i first heard it, especially the chorus... nice and meaningful song.

well, have been slackin for the past few days since monday. those boring talks had me going nuts, it's really boring la. imagine sitting in the hall from 8 to 12... i couldn't stand up aft tat cox my legs were hurtin terribly.hmm, at least todae's activity allowed me to have fun (: we had some vendors teaching us abt finance, and aft tat, we had a game and it was sort of like monopoly. i came to a conslusion aft the game : i cant handle money!

miss my darlin so much...called him jus now, and he sounded lethargic. hmm...i dun wan to disturb him..so long he is safe and sound, i'm contented.

his work load has increased all of a sudden, and it pains me to see him slogging his guts out while those damn assholes officials are doing nothing. wat the hell do they think they are? officials, so wat? i can't stand their f****** attitudes, the way they order people around to complete their work. hey come on, wat's official? i will tell u now. OFFICER = GOOD- FOR- NOTHING, ONLY KNOW HOW TO TALK<>

okie.. the above paragraph only applies to those lszybones, and i know some offcials treat their subordinates well... and for those slackers who refused to do the work assigned to them, plesse kindly F*** OFF. it's really unfair, y can some people slack through, while the others are doing all their duties for them? i just dun understand, heaven is fair, but wat do i see now? some people did so much, but in the end, they received the same treatment as those whu did nothing. well, i totally agree that there's NO FAIRNESS In these world...everything abt bein fair is just a pile of bullshit..

i just feel so helpless, i cant do anything to lessen his workload.. i'm so worried that he will just collapse..

darlin...go see ur wlny, i left a msg for u...

1:39 PM

just got a new pair of spectacles yesterdae. the design's quite nice, and yeaps, hopefully it will look nice on me la.. haha. at least i can stop wearin contact lense daily, kinda troublesome to wear contact actually. there's nth to be envious of to wear lenses... PERIOD.

went to watch underworld with darlin at west mall yesterdae. it's a nice show, bloody and revealin at some scenes, but on the whole, it's still worth watchin. just prepared to see half of the face gone, vampirese cuckin blood, body being teared apart by the propellor, anatomy, etc. haha, gross.

darl, sorry again for the words i said yesterdae. i dun mean to add on to ur frustrations, and i really meant good and was concerned over u, hence i asked if u were alright. but it somehow got detested. no matter wat, i just wan u to stay happy, and not get troubled by some stuff.

SORRY.

it's been so long since i last updated my blog... haix, cox of my monitor, it spoilt, so i had to wait for a new one, and it finally arrived todae! haha...so happy..

anywae, two daes back was my 17th bdae...had an enjoyable time celebratin with darlin. he was really sweet, bought a cake for us ( his mum b dae was the same as mine (: ) haha, his thoughts and efforts really touched my heart. he knew that i dun have the habit of celebratin b'dae, and this was e first time i ever had one. happY 17th birthDAe to myself!

hee..todae it's e first of march..every first dae of each month meant alot to me.. cox it's our 3th mth anniversary ! yeaps, time really flew, we were together for 3 mths.. and durin this period of time, we had gone thru sorrows and woes, but our relationship had lasted when it was put to test several times...i loved him more when we passed thru the obstacles eventually.

i miss him each and every day, gonna see him only on sun..he's busy for e next few days.. haix, makes me kinda worried..very tirin for him.

oh ya, we had a cls outin todae at pizza hut... hmm...an enjoyable time with my clsmates. 2 more daes and e postin results will be out. i really hope that everyone can get their first choice, though it saddens me to see some of them leave. but anyway, all the best to everyone in receivin their results this fri (:

seeya ppl ard, i'm gonna sleep. very tired todae....and FULL! haha